SONATA

Today, I found out someone close to me is cutting herself. I can't be of any help because she won't tell me her problems and I understand that she doesn't trust me enough. I just told her what I thought and I'm not sure if she even listened properly. That's all I can do.

I realised today that I'm not sure if anything I've said throughout the years impacted anyone. No one ever listens to me. When I'm voicing an opinion, when I'm giving my view, when I'm trying to give constructive advice, when I'm telling someone about my thoughts or problems.

I trust my sister a lot and I tell her loads of stuff but I feel like to her, I'm dispensable. She tells other people about her worries, I'm never the first to know. But for me it's not the case. It's really really difficult for me to trust someone, don't even talk about telling my worries. I can't find someone who will fully listen to me or my thoughts. When I talk to someone, they'll fiddle around with their phone, look at me blankly and somehow it never feels like no one gives me a 100%, no one even listens. No one pays attention when I speak. Is something wrong with me?