NEW YEAR

It's easy to see who still holds you dear to heart and who doesn't. I hate expecting. I always look at what's the worst that could happen but I still get that disappointed feeling when it actually happens.

I know that I'm not the easiest person to hang out, talk to, make friends with and I do have a pretty bad reputation of my personality around. All that I ask is that people who actually stay around me as my friends to not try so hard. If you don't want to hang out with me anymore, just say so? It's better than a dangling meaningless friendship. 

I'm better than that. 

"You have such an intriguing mind and such interesting thoughts. I wonder where they come from she said, holding my brain up to the light."